Someone that I loved died in January. I was already disillusioned with our healthcare system and the experience that my loved one went through made the disappointment even worse.
A few weeks after the death, I did some digging about a controversial health issue that had bothered me for awhile and what I found left me a little traumatized. So, when this current global crisis came about, I was already angry at our healthcare system, media, and the world in general. I regressed back to a familiar state of negativity and cynicism.
After listening to some uplifting podcasts and discussions with friends, I snapped out of it. I have always known that the world is a dark place. But the truth is that it is not all dark. And the question that I need to ask myself is, what can I do to bring light into the darkness? Do I want my kids to grow up with a mom who is angry at the whole world? So, a few days ago, I decided not to wallow anymore. I will pray. I will try my best to look for the good. I will look for ways to help others. I will try to be a good role model for my kids. If nothing else, I will try to be kind.
Friend, if you are reading this and are in urgent need of something, please seek help. Know that you are resilient. You can bounce back from this.